I haven't blogged in a while, but as 2011 closes tonight and 2012 rings in I can't help but reflect. This year has been so rough and upsetting that I look forward to it ending. I look forward to a "fresh start". I've noticed how people react when they find out that I have three kids and I've been divorced for 9 years. They seem to pity me. I've dated my fair share and know that eventually some man will enter my life and treat me the way I deserve. Maybe the pearls that I got for Christmas will solidify a good man in 2012. Maybe, the prayers I make daily will be heard. But while there has been bad this year, there has been a lot of good. I get to share my home and my life with a brilliant, loving, funny, beautiful little one year old. She is what motivates me to believe I'm worth so much more than I've settled for in the past. One day I will begin hounding her about how much she is worth, and even if that means that I one day tell her the story of what her father did to me, just so she knows that she is worth more than what I've gotten in the past, I will inform her her. I've started cooking. I've started standing up for myself and I've started to forgive past transgressors. I've healed a lot in so many ways, but still have some healing to do before Mr. Right has room for me in my life, in our lives.
So in wrapping up Happy New Year! My resolution for 2012 is to blog more and share my excitement of my daughter's life with more people.
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